Saturday, December 12, 2009

Mind Fetus

A friend of mine who had been TTC for quite some time coined the term "Mind Fetus". This is the condition that inevitably happens to a woman in the 2WW. Every single twinge, cramp, and breath is evaluated to discern whether or not you are pregnant. And often, you convince yourself that you in fact- ARE finally pregnant.

I have a mind fetus. I need to back away and stop, but I just can't. I have tried to reason with myself, but honestly- I've never been very good at listening to reason- especially from myself.

So I continue to have that internal debate with myself. The planning as if I really am pregnant, and then reminding myself that I might not be. The thinking of all the symptoms that convince me that I am... and then reminding myself that the symptoms of pregnancy are very similar to PMS, much to my annoyance. And of course, let's not forget the internal and forever debate of "To test, or not to test". This one I have failed miserably. As of right now I'm 8dpo, and I've already tested twice.

Again- I know LOGICALLY that the likelyhood of getting a positive is very small, but see... my self just doesn't want to listen. And often, self has a few choice words for me when I try to remind her of this. So I give in.

I am almost happy that I haven't had to deal with a 2ww before, I might have gone completely insane. Because having this many arguments with yourself isn't healthy!!!

3 comments:

  1. yea, the constant mental back and forth isn't fun...but as time you have more 2ww you kinda get the hang of it and know what to expect.

    I hope it turns out to be a real fetus and not just a "mind fetus"!

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  2. Steph, I know that debate....it can be frustrating. Here's also hoping for a real fetus as well.

    I am in the 2ww also...I know how you feeling. *hugs*

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  3. I have one of those and I'm currently wondering if I should give mine up or not since I'm nearly at the end. best of luck to you.

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