Monday, September 27, 2010

Back from the Dr

It went SO well and I was clearly worrying over nothing.

I got three mature follicles. Two are 15mm and one was 18mm. So I got my ovidrel shot and now DH and will be BDing like crazy LOL

I am still really invested in this cycle, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much.

And after my wonderful appointment- I found out that a good friend of the family is in remission from Lymphoma!!

My day was cruddy yesterday- but now it's SO much better!!! God is good!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

UGH I'm seriously going to cry over this.

WARNING- This entire post is TMI.

I have a yeast infection. I'm so scared to take anything or do anything to stop the itching.

I have my ultrasound tomorrow, so I'll just ask my RE then what I can do and how this might affect our chances of getting PG this cycle.

I read that the change in PH can affect the sperm and our ability to get PG this cycle. This makes me very cranky because I CANNOT put this cycle off. I really can't. I will lose my ever loving mind.

I am terrified that I'm going to go to this ultrasound tomorrow and be told that nothing has happened, like last time. I have put WAY too much weight into this cycle. Which was a STUPID idea. But here I am- seriously invested in the assumption that I will see two lines in about 2 weeks.

And then I realized that my Conception lube disappeared. Since Clomid tends to dry me out really bad so I had some sperm friendly lube. Well it's missing. And I went to go buy more and I can't find it at either of the stores I usually frequent.

I am also irrationally scared that I will go into this appointment tomorrow and be told that there is no response. Because that's what happened last time.

Yes I realize this is completely irrational because I know the Clomid makes me ovulate. I have tracked that with charting and have had 3 ovulatory cycles with Clomid. But I'm still crazy and I have weird irrational fears.

So yeah- I'm ready for tomorrow to come so I can know what lies ahead. And then of course we begin the 2WW which will bring on a whole other set of neuroses LOL

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Random thoughts

So I've realized that this summer was FAN-FREAKING-TASTIC. LOL. Aside from the TONS of stress that I've been through, I did so many amazing things and really just had an amazing summer. I kind of feel like it was my last Hurrah  before we have a baby. Ya know that annoying phrase that you sometimes hear?

"You should enjoy the time you have before you have a baby"

It's never good to hear, but honestly- that's what I have done this summer. We took the summer off because of moving and then had to postpone a couple more cycles because of other stuff. I went to 4 concerts (all of which were AMAZING) went to  Cedar Point twice (maybe a third time, still deciding LOL) and just spent the summer hanging out with BFF a TON. I can't even remember all the awesome stuff I'm thinking of. But I'm glad I had this summer.

Not to say that I am glad I've gone through IF, I'm just seeing the silver lining in the situation.

During this summer, BFF also went through A REALLY long summer of dating. She went through a LOT of bad guys.

I think both of us going through a crappy point in our lives, it made the summer that much better. I don't think that if I had everything going great in my life that I could have been the support that she needed. I think our suffering helped us to help each other.

So that's my silver lining of the night.

Cycle update- I am done with the Clomid and started taking Mucinex to increase my CM. My ultrasound in Monday and I am SO nervous because of what happened last time.

Wish me luck!!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

CD1! New cycle!

It's officially CD1, which works well for the timing for my ultrasound,which as we know I DID NOT schedule well last month LOL

I bought yet another BBT thermometer tonight because mine died. I haven't been charting for quite a few months, I'm worried that I won't be as vigilant as I should be, but I have a feeling that the old habits of obsession will kick in quickly LOL

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Three Years. and an update

Today is my third wedding anniversary. We took this weekend and got a hotel room and just relaxed. It was pretty great to get away from all of the drama of our lives in the last month.

I am thrilled that we made it through the last three years and know that we can make it through anything. We've gone through our rough patches, and I think we've truly overcome it and have grown a lot. 

Grandma is finally home and doing a lot better, but she had a couple of rough patches. It's been a very long month and I'm glad we ended up canceling this cycle.

I'm back on the progesterone and AF will probably arrive within the week. I'm excited about this cycle, and admittedly putting a lot of hope into it.

This cycle will consist of the following
  •  50mg Clomid CD5-9
  • CD 16 ultrasound
  • Possible trigger shot and timed intercourse
  • Mucinex CD10-3DPO
  • Acupuncture throughout my cycle
As well as all the other tricks, elevated hips, grapefruit, loose boxers and everything else that I can't think of right now.

Like I said, I am putting a lot of weight in this cycle. My BFF/Cousin Lisa is pregnant and as happy as I am for her, I really want to be pregnant with her rather than watch her go through what I would LOVE to have for 9 months.

So that's pretty much the update on me. It's been a long month, but my faith has definitely been strengthened and I am handling all of this a lot better than I have in the past.

Sorry for the extended absence! I swear I'm back now and I'll be back to commenting on my favorite blogs.