Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Screw PCOS

I have been doing a lot of research about PCOS because I'm considering doing some alternative treatments.

And I came across some links on Soulcysters about the links between PCOS and depression. And ya know, I have been depressed for a LONG time. I've been struggling with it for about 8 years on and off.

It's just ONE more thing on that list of crap that PCOS has screwed up ya know?

AF arrived on my bday, which was Monday. I tried to keep it together so I wouldn't ruin my birthday, but yesterday I just let it hit me and I decided to take a break from TTC for a couple months. This last cycle has been really hard on my body and emotionally too.

I just want to SCREAM right now. My depression has screwed up a bunch of stuff in my life. Granted, I hold a lot of responsibility. But if it wasn't for the depression I probably could have handled things a LOT better in the past.

I am angry about a lot of things, but today is a culmination of my anger at my body. I suppose it's a long time coming since I have been trying to repress it for a couple months now.

I am angry because I have to take a break for my mental sanity. I'm angry because I have had to put my body through all this for what seems to be nothing. I am angry because I'm fat and someone asked me last week if I was pregnant. I am just downright angry.

So yeah- screw PCOS. It sucks.

4 comments:

  1. (Hugs)

    PCOS sux a whole lot. I deal with depression too, but I can't fully tell if it's just from IF, but I am sure it all goes together.

    I hope you feel better very soon!

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  2. So I'm not the only one that's been asked the prego question... I've been asked probably 20 times in my life and the answer is always no.... my rapid weight gain was caused by not eating right and not exercising... and people are so insensitive anyway... the last couple of times I was asked I gave a pretty rude response... I don't know a lot about PCOS ---but wondering if there's anything you can do about it besides medicine? Also hoping that the depression leaves and sunshine comes sooner than later...

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  3. I'm sorry your feeling down/depressed. Pcos does suck and has screwed up a lot of stuff. I hope some time off helps you to feel better.

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  4. *hugs* I am thinking of you and yes PCOS bites the big one. It screws with too many things.

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