Friday, October 29, 2010

Ok.... it's really hitting me now

I'm REALLY angry. I am so frustrated because honestly- we are at the end of our rope for right now.  The Dr wanted me to move to Injects a while ago, but since we only have 50% coverage, it will just cost us a bit too much right now. We are focusing our finances on paying down debts and building up savings. So although we could probably swing it- we are FINALLY getting back to a good point financially, and I don't want to spend that kind of money each month.

We could go towards the study at the local university- but I don't know if we will even qualify. And I've already been on the Clomid for 5 cycles- I really shouldn't do too many more.

All of this combined with my doubt in my intuition- and I'm scared that I will NOT get pregnant any time soon.

DH and I are back to talking about Adoption. I am starting to think that I want to do direct domestic adoption, instead of foster care- but again- it's about the money for us. We can apply for grants, and I've looked into other options, but then I start to wonder if we can save the money- would that be better spent on IF treatments? Or is it the other way around?

It's all just so confusing, and I'm not handling any of it right now.

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