Sunday, November 29, 2009

Ok.... so I might have ovulated

Warning- This post is full of obsessive rantings. Yes I realize that I can't do anything right now but wait to see what happens, but I'm not so good at that.

Here is my latest chart, in case anyone cares.

I have officially moved into being hopeful and thinking that I might actually get PG this cycle. DH and I got into an indulgent conversation in the car about how we would tell some people.
And I need to stop. Hope isn't bad, hope is good- but I need to reel it in a bit before I start assuming I am already pregnant.

I would like to say that I would be great with just ovulating, but honestly right now I wouldn't be. I'm tired. If I at least ovulate I will be much more encouraged- but I'm tired of this whole process.

I am a horrible control freak. I blame my mother. She is ten times worse than I am. I just want to control MY life for the most part. She wants to control everyone elses ;)

Being such a control freak has made TTC absolute torture for me. I can't control ANYTHING about this. Other than my sex life. And that doesn't do anything towards making a baby. Which doesn't help my control problems.

I am just rambling at this point, but I am hopeful. I'm annoyed that my chart is so confusing, but I can just add that to the long list of annoying things about this process.

3 comments:

  1. I like to control things too. It's very hard when trying to TTC, since there are so many things we just can't control. I wish you all the luck in the world this cycle!

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  2. I would love if I could control something in this whole process. I hate that I can't. Good luck.

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  3. I'll be praying for you that you get that BFP *hugs*

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